159. Talk about one thing you hope to do in the upcoming year that you have never done before.

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One thing that in the coming year, I would like to do is to find out once and for all who my real father is/was. My mother’s never told me anything save that he was a good man, an uncharacteristic statement for her to make about anyone. That’s all I know of him. He was a good man and then he left and his leaving was apparently my mother’s fault, they had been sweethearts while at Hogwarts. Something happened and my mother agreed to her father’s proposal that she marry Guillermo Zabini and thus consolidate their two fortunes. Eight short months after their wedding day, I was born. I inherited my mother’s dark skin and all my life I was told by my…Guillermo’s business associates that my eyes and mannerisms were very much like his. He died when I was six, the only husband of my mother to ever die of, well shall we say, ‘natural’ causes. As good and as loving as Guillermo was to me and to my mother, he is not my blood father. A simple matter of a paternity charm confirms that, even if the letters and secrets that my mother had hoped were buried in the sands of time had not been found by me in my fifth year.

I don’t even have his name. All I have is what she told me one summer’s eve when she’d had a few too many drinks after one of the parties shortly after Guillermo’s death. Before husband number two appeared on the scene for the brief period that he was with us. She sat by my bed, stroking my hair, and told me that she’d loved my father very much and that he had been a good man and that she missed him a lot. I was very young at the time and did not pick up on the fact that she was not referring to Guillermo, the man whose surname I bore.

So in between fighting this war that is coming and no matter what the Ministry claims, I know it for fact that there will be a war. It has already started. It started with the Department of Mysteries in my fifth year; Dumbledore’s death in my sixth was just yet another casualty. In between fighting this war, I want to try and track down this person, to see for myself if what my mother had told me was true.

I hope for her sake, it was.


Blaise Zabini
Harry Potter Series